(◡̀﹏◡́҂)ᕤ hi there! i'm pan!
and i live in hanoi, vietnam with my three cats and one dog – they run my life! i write in my broken english as a way to learn (and sometimes in my native language as a way to hide). this blog is my digital garden on the internet - it's ever-changing and constantly growing along with me. the idea of building something over time just feels right to me, and i think it's a beautiful process.
and i love steamed broccoli. getting lost in books. taking long tiring walks. soaking up both rainy days 𓆧 and the summer sun. my letterboxd summary says i watch the most movies on thursdays.
i don't sleep much, just 5 to 6 hours a night. i think i was born with caffeine in my veins. running on so little sleep i pretty much sleepwalk through the day forgetting everything i'm supposed to remember.
noons are my reading time, and i especially enjoy poetry — anne carson and li-young lee really speak to me, even if i don’t always get it. rereading is my thing, though; my forgetfulness makes it feel extra rewarding and enjoyable. when feeling low, i hop on my bike and let the road measure my mood. for instance, last monday, my sadness stretched for about 36km.
or i might get up at 4 am, grind soybeans and make some tofu. there’s something comforting about turning feelings into something tangible — something you can hold and savor.
i wonder if you like tofu.
and what do you usually do when you're feeling low?
i started this blog in early 2025 and here’s my first bit of rambling. hope they offer you a glimpse into who i am. hope the tofu curds come together instead of swirling around. hope the road grows shorter. hope the grasshopper finds a dry place to shelter from the cold night rain.